Its a Final Countdown

Since my previous pregnancy was due on my 37th week. If you see the tickers, if it follows previous history, I have less than 2 weeks to boom out the baby. Can't wait anymore. My movement so limited now. I can't sit properly, could not stand for long hours. Cannot tahan for long walk at shopping mall (aiyah.. now sales what.. rugi-rugi).. My stomach space also limited. I can't eat a lot at one shot... kena makan sikit-sikit.. I have 5 more days nak kena ganti puasa but I can't since when the clock ticking at 2 - 3 pm, itu perut sudah buat hal.. kena gastrik...

My baby still actively kicking here and there.. ini baby lagi lasak dari sister dia... I still remember that by this moment, Nisa's kicking was slowing down and you just feel only her slightly moves. 1 week before she was delivered, I was admitted to hospital due to no movement was detected. Nisa's heartbeat was so slow and so far. I was worried at that time. Worried that we gonna to lose her. I had to stay in Hospital for 2 days for observation and Alhamdullillah she's start kicking back but not so hard. 1 week after discharged from hospital, I come to office as usual. Suddenly on 16 June 2003, Monday morning, I can feel barely pain but consistently. The pain come and go on every 7 minutes. At first I thought it just false alarm since first time pregnant and my due just 3 weeks more. I just ignore the pain and walk to bathroom to shower and getting ready to work.

Suddenly I realize blood spot while I'm peeing. Inform to hubby and he start panicking. I'm like.. well its ok. As long as the water bag tak pecah, we still have a long time. My hubby sent me to Hospital, and the opening is just 1cm. Since my contraction was not so strong, the docs advised me to go home and rest and watch out for the contraction. So I'm stay at home. Watching @str0. Doing nothing just lying down. The contraction gone. Hubby keeps on calling me. Worried if anything happen to me at home.

1 am on 17 June 2003, the contractions getting stronger until I could not accept my husband make any movement on our bed. He decide to lying on the floor since he could not see me menahan sakit. Guilty feelings shown on his eyes as every moment he heard me like ouch!erkhhh!sakit!!... At 2 am, he decide to sent me back to hospital. The midwife check on opening and still 1 cm and GTC graph shown that its the day baby will come out soon.

Every 2 hours, nurse come to check by blood presure, baby heart beat and also GTC graph. As the clock shown 9 AM, the contraction stop. The midwife asking me if I'm taking any of painkillers to ease my pain and of course its not. "Baby you tak jadi keluar kot" said nurse. She advised me to stay rest as full energy is needed during labour. "Makan banyak sket... nanti tenaga nak pakai banyak". Well I ate a few bites only. Takde selera. Orang tengah susah hati...

At 3pm, the contraction resume. The doc come to scan my baby condition and position and to check dilation. It 4 cm and the doc decide untuk pecahkan air ketuban. 4pm I was in labor room. The contractions getting stronger and stronger and often. I have to grip hubby's hand to ignore the pain. As 9pm, my openning still at 4cm. The senior midwife insert the tube as she suspect that my urine was blocking the opening. As the clock shown 10pm, midwife advised hubby to take a rest and have some food. "Lambat lagi ke kak" hubby ask. "Lambat lagi rasanya, maybe around 2am" midwife replied. Maybe I was so tired, I was fall asleep as my hubby went out to take a break.

11:40pm, my husband come back. I was like immediate tell him that rasa cam nak berak. He rushed out to call midwife. Midwife rushed in, and like sudden "Eh kepala baby dah nampak". The opening getting faster after senior midwife clear out my urine. I was like in 2 worlds during that time. So hardly to open my eyes until midwife jerit "Mummy jangan tido.. baby dah nak keluar". I was like in stunt in a moment and the feeling nak berak again and midwife gave full of supportive directions on where to push. As far as I remember and on forth effort to push out the baby, at last at 11:55pm she was out from my tummy. Alhamdullillah...

Anyway, when everything is over, for me I'm almost forgot everything what i've been thru 9 months pregnancy & the pain. When I saw her face, my hubbby whisper at me.. "Thank you mama.... nak baby lagi?". Without being force by anybody, I agreed to have another baby. Its a undescrible moment. And now, 2 - 3 weeks to go for me and hubby to re-face the situation. I hope that its going to be smooth sailing journey.