Team building!

Pheww!! My body is aching. Maklumla dah berkurun tak exercise. Team building was very interesting. 3 reality TV shows TAR,FF and survivor concepts were combined into one. It was organized by Training Touch.

I could not tell much on the activities since Mommyalif was not part of the challenge yet. So I cannot reveal nanti no surprise anymore.

But towards the end of the program I thinks I change a lot. I'm not going to talk about teamwork spirit over here but I'm going to tell you about what change in me that I realized during the session.

1. I talk a lot - Normally, if I was joining any conference or group meeting, I always be the one that try to hide myself from be highlighted by the speakers. I will avoid to throw any voice or opinion. I have this stage fright problem since I was a kid. So if I had any question or idea, its usually will stuck in my throat and towards the end it will burden my chest.

So during last weekend challenge, during every and each time we complete our task or challenge, our facilitator will have a talk or Q&A session with us. Its talking about how do you feel, what did you learnt from the challenge, if you wants to relate with your personal life, to the company or as a citizens how its will be...

So most of the time I will try to answer every question that throw by facilitator. Its surprise me a lot when I can speak without even shaky a bit... I said to myself.. Wow!!.. there is no more shaky hands or shaky voice. I can talk in front of my colleagues (where some I know them and some I did not even notice them before in office) without any fear. Bear in your minds two of them is a Manager and the only active members that always volunteer (that one that no need facilitator to mention any name) to throw the opinion is only 4. 3 out of 4 are men and only 1 woman and it was me!

Surprise! Surprise! Surprise! I'm so proud of it. So proud especially when I can see all members focus on me and start node their head agree with me and later I was so happy when others will add a spice based on my opinion. One of the things I highlighted to them the big issue that cause our company target or objective was never been achieved. I hope the 2 managers listen to what I said. As I can see most of the members agree with me.

2. Surprise notice from colleague - There is heart to heart session. Where you should pick 1 or 2 among the members where you need to voice you personal opinion of the member that you choose and give a constructive feedback. So I got 2 colleagues comes to me and voice their opinions about me.

• They love my character. I speak up from my mind and avoid any emotional interfere. I work professionally when I only voice out of ketidakpuashatian something related to work but not on personal attitude. They love me because I was once fireback my ex-manager where most of everybody hardly to do that infront of him.
  
• The like me when I laugh. They said, when I laugh I look so sincere. When I laugh its alyways shows that my laugh is come from my heart.. bukan pura-pura ketawa.. - I can say, wow!! I did not know that!. I thought everybody do the same. OK... I'm so happy when I know I can made someone cheer when they see me ketawa mcm setan!! Hahahahah!!
• They hope that I can be more cheerful in the morning. Hahahah!!! I know that... because I'm not a morning person... hahaahha.. susah ni nak ubah but its a good things they highlight to me...
  

3. As mentioned earlier that Fear Factor is one of the concept that was applied. So ada la kan adegan makan tu kann.. But I'm not going to tell you what was eaten by me...But its truly disgusting and surprisingly I can chew them and swallow them without even vomit. Wooohoooo!!.. So when the facilitator asking all of us our feedback, my answer is " Oh well.. now I smell like xxxx. (then everybody laugh). But surprisingly I can do that. So my conclusion, you will never know that you can do it until you try"

I do enjoy the session even my body was painful. And even all of the members will remember me cause I speak a lot and most of it because of aksi 'panas' that I have to do it with my team during E! session.. now ada gossip liar la kan kat opis ni... isk! isk! isk! But I will handle it as celebrity la... "No comment!" hehehe..

Ok la.. dah panjang la kan.. mcm korang nak baca... ni entry cam syok sorang2 pon ada... but anyway.. I'll keep it for the record. Mana tahu kan boleh jadikan peringatan and semangat when I feel down again... buhbye!

Takde Tajuk: Part 1

Me: Bos busy ke?

x-Bos: Not really but lepas ni I ada meeting

Me: Nak jumpa jap la.. need your advice

x-Bos: After lunch boleh.. about 2pm

Me: Ok set

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Me: Hi bos, sihat?

x-Bos: Sihat...tapi biasala busy sket.. transformation..

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pot pet pot pet.. pasal gossip semasa jap
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Me: Actually bos, need your opinion la..

x-Bos: Ada apa... cakap la..

Me: I lost interest with my work la... actually I more on lost interest on supporting current product.. Dah cuba to be in love with this product... tapi tak bole la.. 7 months I drag mende ni.. pushing myself.. cannot la bos..

x-Bos: So you ada option lain tak..

Me: So far tak.. that's why I nak jumpa you... My option cuma its either I cuba internal vacancy or else kalau tak de choise.. I kena move out to another office la kot..

x-Bos: I ada option.. tapi apa-apa pon.. kena dapat green light from your current manager

Me: Tahu bos.. I tak jumpa lagi dia.. I plan nak jumpa dia lepas ni.. after dapat advice from you la...

x-Bos: Actually my plan camni....{pot pet pot pet bla bla bla...} kira-kira more or less same as what we did last time la.. cuma customer berbeza-beza la... I memang kalau boleh nak pull off orang-orang lama yang memang dah faham this kind of system... orang-orang cam you yang dah pernah go thru this process.. ye la environment maybe tak sama tapi the concept tu sama..

Me: I ok je bos.. why not just try..

x-Bos: Go talk to your bos first, then we work out from there on ..

Me: Orite.. thanks bos for your time...

x-Bos: No problem... anything call I balik la..

Me: Orite...

continue...

2007 Kick Off

For the first time after 25 years my company had Annual Kick Off Meeting after Maghrib. The event start at 8pm with Color of the Rainbows is our theme. Nothing much interesting me. No bonus announced that night huh!!

Met a few my ex-team but got no good chance to take a photo with them.

I Feel Hypnotized!

Dah start kerja since monday. But since I planned to upload my Raya photo first(but still not), so malas nak post anything until today. While a picture already transfered into my hubby laptop, and as I'm writing this in the office (ponteng le tuhhh...), so still no picture.

Today is my third day in office after confinement leave but there are so many great,sad & shock news happen/hear.

• Great cause our HR plan to review all staff salary (either static or may slighly increase). heheheh...
• Sad cause a few of my ex-colleagues left to join our prev project co.
• Shock cause my team will be change to new bos and my current manager seems dont' care anymore about us. Huh! Pssss.... actually most of us are happy with the news esp my senior because our current bos is super duper kedekut and follow the book one.....

Dan disebabkan eden tukau bos lagi next year as I'm dgn loyal nye bekerja dgn company ini selama 5 tahun setengah (ye ke... rasanya sebab dah try cari kerja lain tapi tak dapat heheeheh...), saya telah & akan bekerja with 3+1 bos. Is it good or is it bad I dunno, I really dunno and I dun want to know.

Met with a few ex-team, some happy with current post but some feel so down. Transformation make a lot of changes. Well some happy with the decision, some not and some dun care much. Me?? I think among of group yg dun care much. Macam kena pukau kan.. ikut je... rasa cam dah join club with all super senior kat sini yg dah kerja more than 10 years...

My Last Day In Petronas-KLCC

Today is my last working day serving Petronas people in KLCC after 5 years services. Kejap je.. pejam celik pejam celik dah 5 tahun. By next week, I will be back to HQ at Subang doing something not so new for me but I'm moving to another department and reporting to new manager. Sedih ke? Ntah.. dalam hati terketik2 nak balik.. tapi remember all memories kat sini.. aiseh... syahdu gak.. OK no more words... Here some picture

KLCC View from L59











Colleagues

Machine Vs. Paper

This coming June my 5 years project will be ended the contract and I will be back to my HQ. Some of my colleague will be stay here as they accept the offer from our so called business partner/client/competitor.

For the past 5 years, I’ve been doing 97% technical job and less paper work. So damn happy!!.. Everyday I come to work; I only have to worry about user’s machine, network and servers. It’s a routine job. In order for you to join my team is a basic technical skill & knowledge and power skills on common sense and logic.

5 years doing the same thing, I almost do not appreciate my skill. I feel down sometime. But after we got a trainee for us to train, I just realize that my routine job it’s not that easy. I don’t know. Could be that I don’t have a good skill on training people or my ‘student’ are not smart enough?? Heheheh….

Anyway, I’ve been offered by my boss to move to Marketing Dept. It’s a little bit surprise actually because he (my boss) knows that I’m not a kind of mesra-mesra with people and most of all he knows that I hate doing documentation. But it’s also a good challenge for me to move from technical group to money minded group. Plus I have to compete with my husband that currently working with our competitor. Yaa.. he also marketing/sales rep for his company. Tee he he…

For this moment, I’m considering the offer. Test power tengok for 6 months. Or else I will request to move back to my technical team.

p/s: sniffing a good cheese..

Taichi-ing Power

December is a month that I work with less stress since most of my user taking leave/holiday. Its their company policy to finish off their annual leave. So apa lagi mama goyang kaki je la... asik-asik browse website. For sure Border Manager report for end of this month, the most web browsing of non-business related will fall under our group... hehehe... Who cares anyway..

So yesterday, I receiving a report that 10 users unable to connect to 1 new server at Bangi due to IP address conflict. Apahal la pulak server Bangi problem pass kat kitorang as we only handling servers at KLCC. So I asked Helpdesk to re-transfer the report to custodian of the server. And the best part, the person that made a report is a custodian. It's like mechanic send his car to another workshop to fix his car. Camana tu?.. Well this is part of working environment at my place. taichi-maichi is common here. Mostly, vendor la yg kena teruk. Since they have no idea on how to fix the problem, they just create a report and taichi to vendor to investigate. But as for me, after 4 years served them, I know how to Taichi back the report. Ya laa.. nothing to do with us..mcm birocracy pon ade...

So, if I Im leaving this place, I know what to tell my boss. The new candidates MUST have 4-5 years working experience with Super Taichi skills. It's important to keep our role/job scope as per write on the contract paper. It's not I'm is person yg suka berkira, but since ever I join this project, there are so many changes and add on services and best effort services that have been done. Hello.. we are not providing welfare service. It's all about business nothing personal.

But my boss also said to me that, its OK for us to give them 'extra' service. Ya I know.. It's for long term business.. I do understand. But I really don't like when people take for granted of our 'kindness'. If ada unsur-unsur politik lagi la tak suka.

Politics and Malaysia will never ever can be seperated. Tak kira la if you work with gomen or private. It must exist kalau tak byk pon, sikit-sikit mesti tempias. Because of this 'dirty' politics, a lot of policy was not followed/applied for certain people. Even the policy state ALL members tapi for 'certain' people to pejam mata. When audit come to check the practice, all hancus..And because of this dirty politics also can cause staff lain merana. Because of nak jaga kerusi sendiri, sanggup letak duri atas kerusi org lain. Pastu act like nothing happen.

It sound unfair. But we have to admit that is reality. The point is either it can be change or not is up to us. The change will not going to be happen in one night. It may take 100 years. But if we start it somewhere, the 'revolusion' will take place.

Am I sound merepek today? Hehehe... anyway congratulation to you that you manage to read until this line. :p

Just enjoy the song.